hmm hri nie 1 feb..which is brthday ibu....

so pg td aku wish ibu...n brcrite itu ini....

tup2..aku di berithu yg atuk aku jtuh kt kebun..mcm kna strok..

tp atuk aku xde drah tnggi...

atuk aku pn 1. x nk prgiklinik..check..just prgi brurut je....

alhmdulillah..nsib baik xde ape2 yg truk...dh bleh brjln smula...

tkang urut tu ckp atuk aku maybe ade msalah urat saraf..wuish bhaya tu...saraf klau ptus....hmm x mau mmbayangkannya.....nauzubillah...mga2 djauhkan....

crite atuk aku 1 hal..

pas tu ibu aku ckp die jtuh mtor plak....

nsib baik xde ape2..tp lbam2 la jgk....rsau btul aku...aku dh la jauh kt cnie..adik aku pun skrg duk ngan pakcik aku..so ibu tnggal dgn syaza n ryaas je....

eee...rse nk menitik ayak mta dgar td....

ibu lngsung x bgthu aku....

ibu mmg mcm nie...ske rhsiakn drpda aku...

aku x nk la pisang brbuah 2 kli..

dlu arwah ayah aku jtuh..msuk hspital..aku lngsung x thu....

tup2 dpt call dr mkcik aku sruh blik umah..sbb ayah aku dh tnat...

akhirnya ..aku x dpt jmpa arwah ayah aku..aku x dpt brcakap dgn dia buat kli trakhir...

arwah ayah mninggal msa aku dlm bus...

on d way nk blik rmah...

byangkan aku smpai kt rmah atuk aku ..

hnya jenazh arwah ayah dh kaku...aku x dpt nk mntak maaf....aku bnyak dsa ngan arwah ayah aku...

aku ank yg jnis kras kpala...sbbkn ego aku yg tnggi tu la..aku ilang hrmat kt arwah ayah aku..

btapa bsarnya dsa aku...tp...aku x dpt pluang nk tbus blik dsa2 aku...

aku x dpt nk luah n ckp btapa aku msih syang kan dia....

aku x dpt....x dpt...

dn smpai skrg hti aku msih mrasa skit..pikul beban sbb x dpt jmpa dia buat kli trakhir...

'ayah...akis nk mntak maaf..akis thu akis dh bnyak kali lukakan hti ayah..akis brdosa..'

hurmmmmmmmmm.......lately nie...slalu je ckp trblik2.......x tau knp.......

de pnyakit ker???????

ke sign for sumthing?????????

any disease???????

ckup xske ble ckp trbalik2 nie...........

adoiii..mmg la nmpak lwak..

tp ble pkir2 blik...........

nmpak mcm truk n horror..........

adoiiiiiiii..........

tkut la plak...........

skrg nie pkir psal mati je...........

hurmmm.......

fuhhhhhhhh..............

nk buat cmner yek..nasi dh jd bubur..........

nk tlak pn x ble............

dkre mcm paksa rela pun ader.............

abis tu nk wat cmner..................

adooooooooooiiiiiiiiii................cnfius jdnyer..............

wahai hti tabah la............

sumer yg brlaku de hkmahnyer..................

hurmmmmmmmm...........

smoga dprmudhkn sgalanyer............

bkn sng nk pikul tugas nie.................

be a positive girl ...kis.....

i know u can do it!!!!

chaayouk!

hmmmm agk mnarik jgk new year aku..wlaupun aku x dpt smbut dgn prcikn bunga api..

slalu mmg aku x miss tgok bnga api..

tp thun 2010 nie x brkesemptan....hurmmm..

nk wat cmner kn...blik meeting pn dh kul 12.00...

dlm 12.03 mnit gtu aku call fir..nk wish new year..

hmmm..tp x brangkt plak phone..mne la mamat ni prgi...

abis je aku ltak phone..

call dr fir msuk...

"salam honey.....hepp new year!" aik mcm plik je...aku rse mcm lain mcm...then aku pn tka..

"owh..fir sngaja x nk angkt my call eh?..."

"ala..bg la fir mnang..fir wish dlu kn..."

"eeee..mne acik...fir main ngelat..qis yg nk wish fir dlu tau...." ader nda x puas hati gtu...

"ala qis...qis try next year la...bgla fir mnang..."

"mne ble mnang....fir main ngelat.."

"xde la ngelat pn..fir mmg dh nk call qis dh..fir bru nk cri ur nme kt cntact..then ur calling msuk...so fir biarkn je la...."

"eeeeeeeeee.....x aci tau...." dgn nda mnja plak..hahhaha...

so drpd wish2 new year..tbe2 msuk ke sesi luahan hati plak....

fir story about him..n aku story bout me....

then, mlm tu aku pn brterus trang pe yg aku rsekn after stahun 2 bln kter org couple...

aku ckp kt die yg aku mkin syg kt die...n aku smakin pasti yg aku mmg sygkn die...

dlu..aku msih ader prasaan yg tragak2..aku still doubtful whether pe yg aku rse ni9e true or not...

mgkin rse syg aku kt die sbnrnyer syg as a fren....

sbb aku msih ble tringtkn ex aku...hmm jhatkn aku nie..nie ble di katgorikn crang tau!

tp ble aku cntact blik my ex n then cmpare antra fir ngan my ex.....

mmg jauh sngt..

aku dpt rsekn yg aku ngan fir lbih serasi..dn lbih gmbira...

aku jrg brgaduh ngan fir...aku ngan fir slalu ble tolak ansur even kter org de pndapat yg brbeza..

tp with my ex..aku slalu nk mnang...ex aku pn smer..

so msing2 xnk bralah....

dg fir ..aku ble nmpak...aku dpt rsekn yg dri aku smaki brubah..

aku dh x kras kepala sngt...

dlu aku agk keras kpala..tp ble dh couple nie mkin soft....ble fir slow talk ngan aku..aku ble trime....

so aku rse bnda tu sngt pnting..ye la kter as a woman..kna la ikut ckp lelaki kan..

kter kna cri psangan yg ble cntrol prangai kter..n yg ble lmbutkn prangai kter yg kras...

n most important..ble aku jd api..fir ble jd air..n ble fir jd api..aku ble jd airnyer..

always be like that...

aku thu die kcewa ble aku ckp yg aku de cntact ngan my ex...

tp die ble fhm....his totally changed....

so aku rse aku mmg sngt brsyukur dprtemukn. dgn die..

moga2..mdah2an..relationship nie brakhir dgn sesuatu yg sngt mnis..INSYAALLAH....

tp yg x ble bla tu tbe2 kuar cter psal baby..adoiiii...

pe nk jd ngan aku nie....

smakin trserlah kegataln...

tp trah ckp tu bkn gtal..tp sfat keibuan yg smakin trserlah...ahhhaks...

hmm so sweettttttttt.....fir sker baby girl rpernyer....

fir ckp die sker baby gurl sbb baby girl kter ble hias2..

ble ikat rmbut die..ble pkaikn gaun yg cmellll....

tp fir trtnggal lg 1 sbb....klau dpt baby gurl..nnti cmelll mcm ibunyer.....

:-p.............